It’s a Struggle

I had a mental break down the other day. It was humiliating and debilitating. I felt so pathetic and lost; those feelings still linger today. I feel physically ill, and mentally exhausted. But I want this blog to be a place of comfort and understanding, so here we are.

Today wasn’t as productive as I wanted it to be. I did a load of piled dishes, and cleaned out a mess of a fridge. But there are still many dishes, many messes, and little motivation. Despite considering myself to be an amateur writer, I simply cannot find the words to truly describe how I’m feeling…

It is… a difficult day, but I’m convincing myself that I’ll get by and things will be better. If you take nothing else from this site, understand that at the very least your feelings are not unmirrored. I feel for your life struggle, and sincerely hope that things get better. No, they WILL get better. If your job is making you miserable, change it. Don’t dwell on the needs and the reasons to stay, DON’T, if it’s making you miserable…leave it. Same if it is your relationship that is making you feel this way. Anything and everything, change it, get rid of it. This is your health you’re talking about, your life. You shouldn’t be spending it being sad and lost. You’re worth so much more than that. And… I’m trying to convince myself of the same things. Which is hard. God, if anything is more difficult than going through these things, it’s convincing yourself that you’re not weak, and that things will get better.

The remainder of my day will be spent ricocheting between feeling depressed and lost and feeling content and hopeful. It will take every ounce of my being to get up from this bed and make dinner, and to get ready for work tomorrow. But I will do it. And so will you. Here’s to a brighter day, everyone, and a better life.

Photo by Jakob Owens from StockSnap

Published by Alex

A bit of a jumbled mess, I am an aspiring social media influencer eager to share my many hobbies with the world.

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