Feeling Myself

Mmmmmm, Chinese food first thing in the morning. Chopsticks at the ready, sun shining through the open window. Such a glorious day is underappreciated. It all started with an argument in the kitchen with Dr. Now’s next patient, my overweight household pet. He insisted he needed more food and mass amounts of attention, I explained in cat that today is not the day I sacrifice small children to appease his ever-growing appetite.

I dedicated my day to accomplishing tasks and doing my best impersonation of adulting. I know. Thank you, thank you. Four loads of laundry and several shopping ventures later, I’m contently typing away for this glorious, amateur blog. And I must say… I’m very happy. Some days are better than others, as with life, and I’m happy to report that today is one of the good ones.

It may not be the most glamorous day for most people, but it’s everything to me. Just…being. Every second not spent staring into an endless void of blah is the most…beautiful thing. And I cling to it with every ounce of my being, knowing that it will not last very long. It’s a good day, it’s a good life, and for now… I am content.

(Note: When there are those days you just keep checking yourself out in the mirror, cherish them. You’re not being cocky or weird, you’re feeling confident and proud. It’s a good thing to feel. When there are days when your makeup comes out exactly the way you want, cherish them. Art comes in many forms, as does confidence, and it is not something to down-play. You’re a queen. For those days when feeling the slight breeze and sun on your face just make you want to sob with happiness, bask in them. And for every other day when you feel less than alive. The days when glancing at a mirror means wanting to smash it, or breathing is the hardest thing to do, let alone put one foot in front of the other… The days where your heart, your being, your soul just yearns and ACHES… All of the days… know that you, my dearest fellow being, are a motherfuckin’ beast. And you’re doing phenomenal even if all you did today…was wake up.)

Photo by Tyson Dudley from StockSnap

Published by Alex

A bit of a jumbled mess, I am an aspiring social media influencer eager to share my many hobbies with the world.

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