Well folks, today is another day. And it has brought many things with it. Unfortunately for me, among the great many things it has dropped at my metaphorical door, it has rolled out the dreaded red carpet. The great red sea. An Elizabeth Báthory bath, if you will…
Alright, people, you get the point. For the sake of the more squeamish of you, I won’t go into further detail. But a big point in blogging for me is to be relatable and motivational. And for many a people, starting off your day curled up in a ball, crying, and bleeding is a very relatable thing. But let’s get back on track.
I had an orientation for a new job today. I’m hopeful, and nervous, and many other things, but more than anything I’m excited to start a new chapter in my life. It’s not the most prestigious job, in fact it’s a small role in a warehouse, but it’s a step. And that’s what matters. Keep taking those steps, people. The dreary day didn’t dampen my mood, pun intended. And the people I met today were more than pleasant. Alas it is a good day on Planet Earth.
Which brings me back to one of the main purposes of my blog; to be relatable. My day was not untouched by irritability and intense cursing. Nor was it absent of rolled eyes, loud huffing, and the like. No, no. I had several people drive unbearably slowly in front of me. And stepped in dog shit on the bathroom carpet at 4:00 a.m. And spent the time before that reenacting one of Jim Carry’s bed scenes from Bruce Almighty. Sleep issues are bitch. And so is life, at times, but the key really is to focus on what you ALLOW to affect you.
So here’s the message for today’s ramblings…you are the one that determines how you see the world, and you are the one that can choose to be happy. It’s not easy; it never is. You don’t have to be all lucky charms and rainbows. You don’t even have to smile a lot. You just have to be able to shut yourself up occasionally when you find that you’re cursing out your windshield because the lady in front of you took three illegal turns, moved 20 mph in a 45 zone, and caused you to get stuck at a pain-in-the-ass intersection light, just tell yourself to shut…the Hell…up. It’s okay. It’s fine. It’s inconvenient and frustrating, but it’s not the end of the world. (At least as far as we know.) And even if you find yourself only shutting up once a day, that’s already better than the day before when you flipped that lady off and hoped she got a flat tire right outside of a water treatment facility. You’re doing better.
So you’re nauseous and your whole body is ACHING. You feel like you’re going to shit yourself, puke, cry, and rip your spine out of your body. And that you are just some feral, disgusting swamp creature because nature is a beautiful and cruel thing… But hey, at least you’re not pregnant (if that’s what you’re hoping for.) Or, hey, your uterus is a bit healthier than it otherwise could be (so that’s cool, especially for someone who is 99.9% sure they have endometriosis, but not the money or insurance to confirm it.) And even if you hate being alive because of this and haven’t accomplished much all day because of it… just know that it’s okay. You’re okay.
There is a lot of good in life, but most importantly, YOU are the good in life. YOU are the thing that made today, which was otherwise a shitstorm in many ways, the best day ever. It was YOU who caught your bad habits and started turning them towards more enlightenment. Life is going to kick your ass, and some days are just going to be garbage, but it’s YOU who makes life overall a happy and amazing thing. So try to acknowledge the shit of today, and then move on. And don’t beat yourself up if you only change your attitude once a day. You’re making progress. YOU are life, and because of that… life is AWESOME.